alfian ♥

life's like this

at times, i am thinkingg this boyy doesnt knows what he wants.

he chose me but at times i feel that we are both from different world.

i love him as much as he loves me.

but sometimes thinggs just is nort workingg out as what we want it to be.

im confuse of what i want and what he wants :/

th life i want it to be just doesnt works out.

what am i suppose to do?

life's like this

i miss bloggingg. its been longg since i entered blogg :/

♥♥

life's like this

been a long time since i entered my blog.

still surviving jugakk.

well, fasting month starts alry ;

& its holiday now.

so i have time to log in to blog.

i think ive gained weight.

been eating alot during this fasting month,

trying to stop doing nonsense alry.

seriously..

raya shopping almost done! : D

its only a week fasting.

so slow !

life's like this

yes,

i dont want to be in a relationship.

i just dont have faith to be in a relationship for now,

even if i love someone,

i dont think i want to be in a relationship.

relationship just sucks.

gives ppl unhappiness,

and end up crying for a guy.

whats the point?

they dont even treasure us.

sometimes i feel i have to run after them to make me happy,

even if the right guy comes

how can i be sure hes the one?

life is unfair

life's like this

had a bad day ah.

vomit in school.

friends behaving so randomly attitude.

no one cares about the project at all.

& i cld see that im the only person engrossed

doing the project.

because of u guys,

i dont feel like doing anything.

as what my lecturer always says:

life is unfair;

nothing is.

thinking that everything will go fine

& that must think positive thinking thingy

doesnt works anymore laa.

-.-

whatever it is,

life is still unfair

life's like this

feeeling bored & vexed

glad that school's reopening sooon

eventhouu

i had to admit--

school is tiring & makes me sleeepy sometimes

well, at least if i go school

i have things to do.

study, exams, tests.

"great. i love it"

mom says at my age now

i have to think of my future & career.

she wants me to focus in nursing

& stop playing around.

damn!~ i hate getting older.

(NO)MORE playing.

guess i have to really focus in nursing

right now.

moms' right.

i need to think of my careeer

else, i'll be the last one out

when everyone goes out to work

after graduation.

i want to graduate fast.

god, please pass all my exams

WITH flying colours.

else, i have to face the same papers & teachers

ALL the time.

with naggings*

that includes my parents.

plus i wanna get my sneakers.

super have to work hard for it.

:D

can i have more of the strawberry wafle?! it taste great. specially bought from korea

from my: aunty : D

I want to own a vespa

life's just like this

i just want peace☮ in my life.

life's just like this

i went online shopping ytd.

confirm buying 77th street tshirt and pink polkadot shorts from her.

total sum~25.

meeting her later by 2plus collecting my clothes.

finally a new set of clothes to wear.

gosh! i really have to save up money.

cant spend too much.

its better to have money on hand than broke,.

like what people say--

u'll never know when you need it so badly.

feeling bored at home.

facebook nothing interesting.

blog- no idea what sld i slam on the keypad.

haighs!~

i'll think of something to type, when i got an idea.

so bored

i'm lost

life's just like this

i am restless, and i keep trembling.

Everyone watch me as i descend

into a feeling thats overwhelming me

i finally stopped,

stopped making sense.

i cant stop talking to myself,

i'm a desperate cry for help.

run dont walk the sky is falling through

dont talk. tonight i'm so confused

i'm lost, i'm lost with you.

i dont care where we are,

or where we heading to

but i know i'm lost,

i'm lost with you.

your mouth keeps moving,

but i've lost focus now

clock keeps ticking,

times running out.

where were headed there

is no heading back

tripping ugly, im losing ground.

for the record, when i'm with you

things are looking better

for once, everything is brighter

than the darkness before you.

life's just like this

surgical ward was fine.

but then i couldnt stand it if people are so a-seeker & rude.

instead of welcoming ite students to the ward,

we got a unwelcome frm the ass clerk!

irritating!

she was so rude even to my CI.

i cant believe that even a clerk could attitude like that.

do work also like just to please the sister.

hello, so old ready havent grow up uhh.

attitude problem one.

since you cant respect us,

dont expect people to respect you

=.=

my unforgettable birthday celebration

life's just like this

070510

i thought that my birthday was forgotten.

until everyone wishes me & i was happy.

super happy.

during my birthday, i was working afternoon shift.

so i didnt get to celebrate my birthday at all.

until, my bff came down to sgh during my break time just to celebrate my birthday with me.

it was zaidi & liling.

they came down just to give the cake & the presents despite having their busy scheduole.

although it wasnt that long i spent time with them but the 45 minutes was meaningful.

i was happy on that day!

shared the cakes with my staff & sister.

all of them wishes me=)

i got present from my staff flora too.'

cant forget the 4weeks ive spent therre.

it was a memorable 4weeks and a HAPPY BIRTHDAY indeed.

080510\

today was unhappy.

no one asked me out to celebrate my birthday.

my friends all paitao me!

sad=(

finally, mom asks me to go out watch movie with my siblings.

end up, we watch IROn man 2.

super hot siaa that guy!!

hehe...

we manage to meet up with my cuzz.

she gave me presents too!=D

glad she still made an effort to meet up with me although shes with her matae.

hehe thks cuzz.

love you loadds & thks for the present.

i love it.

THANK YOU=D

life's just like this

happy

17th

burpPdayy

to

ME !!!

JERKS

life's just like this

stop behaving like jerk laa you!

super irritating siahh!

ehy nak panggil budak salakao turon pon akue tak pcl laa!!

no big fuck pon.

merepek ahh.

takd balls uhh kao.

you are so egostic.

adee mistake, mengaku and change jehr laa.

orang ckp ckit, tak happy.

tak habes2, "you nt happy uhh, come down uh"

merepek ahh!

menyusahkn orang jehh!

kao pkir akue takot peh nan budak salakao kao tuuh..

skalie akue report krng,

satu2 cabot lari uhh.!

KENTAL.

GROW UP!!

everyday life

life's just like this

210410~

HOT NEWS :

fainted ,

almost fell to the ground when my staff manage to grab me from de back & walked me slowly to de chair .

checked my Bp , super low & my face was so pale .

incident ~! i was helping doctor with de procedure .

something got to do with needles ,

i couldnt take it seeing de needle being poked to the patient .

*i could feel de pain =.=

during de procedure ,

i excused myself cos i felt terribly nauseous .

manage to walked myself to my central station feelin freakin dizzy .

felt like i was falling .

when takin de few steps , my eyes were open but my vision was black & my ear drums were blocked .

i cant see or hear anything .

only i knoe i felt someone grabbing my arm from behind & put me to the chair .

SUPERR scaryy .

thks staff for helping mie out on that dayy ! =D

220410

lots of my patients wanted to get discharged .

they write in about mie and my frends for good service .

felt happy !

we get lots of compliments and gd feedbacks from our patients .

bonus points !!

i also manage to get the staff to sigb for mie my logbook .

yes ! hopefully can finished it soon before my last dayy ther .

works' quite fun nowadays .

i felt belong there =D

i still rmbr de first week ,

i was so super lost . but now , i'm so lovin it !

glad im a nurse !~

imy

i miss you when something really good happens,

because you're the one I want to share with.

i miss you when something is troubling me,

because you're the only one who understands me well.

i miss you when I laugh and cry,

because I know that you're the one who

makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.

I miss you all the time,

but i miss you the most when i lie down at night

and think of all the wonderful times

we spent with each other for those were some of

the best memomorable times of my

life♥

190410

life's just like this

today ie work alone.

my partner, raheem left mie out.

he didnt came for work today.

keep spaming call him & even called his house but it was not

answered at all.

he just MIA.

out CI finally left a msg to him.

he finally replied back saying that he wanted to quit nursing.

heard about the info,

i was freaking shock.

i was afraid i might have to work alone with all the male patients in

my ward.

pathetically my room doesnt have female patients.

t
exted him, he said it was a false alarm.

i cool down!~

he said he had troubles at home earlier on & he apologised for

giving a false alarm to us.

he'll come tomrw for work.

hopefully he doesnt do that anymore!!

today's work was okay even without a partner.

but i had to rush things too seeing that i'm alone for the day with

only staff nurses.

just ate maggee today for break.

vending machine doesnt have milo anymore.

FED-UP!!~

drank coffee which is so super bitter!!!

dont wanna drink vending machine coffee anymore..=.=

went home, had a small fight with brother.

super irritating, finding fault with mie.

best thing i just complpain to my mom,

and he got a good scolding!

hahaks!! serve him right for giving mie the nudge as soon as i reach

home!

nothing else to write on.

chao!~

attachment

life's just like this

had attachment today .

i guess it was okay ,

although it was a little boring .

todays' weather was weird for my body .

i was feeling both hot & cold at certain times .

when i was outsyde of de lecture room at sgh ,

it was super hot .

felt lyke stripping .

when i was insyde de lecture room ,

i was shivering .

cant decide whats the temp for me .

after lunch @ houseman canteen ,

i had my hospital tour .

a little lost cos sgh is so damn BIG !~

wonder how would i find my way to de ward next time .

hopefully i dont get lost in de hospital .

had a few more talks ;

felt lyke sleeping . tahan only .

finally blah !!!

went home with linda .

we were laughing & giggling in de train lyke nobody business .

felt so crazy on de way home .

hahaks ! enjoyed gg home with her .

hees~~

attchment gonna be 3 months .

wish mie luckz , babyZ !~

ATTACHMENT

life's just like this

eh attachment starting soon luh sehy .

excited doh !

cant wait tuh see whats held for me in de ward=.=

hopefully the staff nurses will "bless" me .

please give me no trouble .

all i want is tuh work in PEACE*

hahks..

hopefully everything turns out well for me in these 9 weeks of attachment .

oohhlalaaa !!!