dudubird is a sucker for life

i cant believe i cried todae. tt stupid art teacher of mine, dudubird, she critices me like fuck. i feel so hurt. & she even complain to the other teacher-in-charge abt me. hypocite fucker bious. i hate her to the core. cos of her my art marks are so getting down this year. how i much wanted to scold her back. no wonder still haven marry. no one want her. hais,, actually im utterly disappointed in myself. why cant i draw well like my friends , i guess i dunhaf a talent like my dad. shes just never impressed in anything i do. i guess im just sum rotten apple in the art class. im jus a typical singaporean which wun live well in her life. i lost my confidence bcos of dudubird. how much do i hate her, so much. shes the last person i want to see when i die.
hais, i know i cant do well in art but why am i still drawing & wasting my time finding informations for my art, why do i still care? weird! u dun even noe urself nura?! how shameful! hais..
erms,, well why shld i care tt much?! shes going off soon anyway. bon voyage man! i cant wait wen shes gone!
i duwan to be crying again&again bcos of her.
i still go other matters i nid to see to.. muahaha..

--him--

_17th may_
hee camee todaee witt alexx.. seriouslii ii hatee alexx to derr coree forr bringingg himm alongg.. i was upsett & fumingg inn angerr, cantt expectt alexx liedd to mii!!
still ii calmm myselff downn.. ii lookk at habeebb ii wass speechless ii didntt knoww whadd to tell him speakk to himm or whadd.. i cud onlii lookk at himm..
derr same wayy i lookk at himm andd ii was speechless but dhiss tymm the feelingg was differentt,, i wass scaredd..
we all satt down,, he wass waitingg forr an answerr..
bhadd all ii cudd wass staree at himm into spacee..

at last ii told himm let mii tokk to alexx ferstt.. & he wentt awayy.. dherr next momentt he koledd askingg forr a stickk.. i was surprisedd.. i guess he reallyreally did startt backk.. or is hee justt doingg it on purpose to spite mee..

i & alexx tokk whilee walkingg to kfc.. we eatt & we tokk..
uu really wanna noe.. i tell uu now//
i was UPSET ANGRY DISAPPOINTED & HATRED WAS insidee mee!
~we were textingg abt my sisterr x & he startedd sayingg diss phrasee..
_i am goingg to bite uu_
i dunno but i kindaa hate itt.
i was angryy & speechlesss.. i justt didnt lykkee him harpingg on the samee thingg againn..
wenn i gavee himm a warning he didnt listenn, till i ask himm the questionn BREAKK..
he startedd panikingg & tolld me finallly tatt it wass his sisterr hu type dherr thingg,, i hate himm.. dhis is the 1st hatred..
he cudnt accept it & he keptt thinggs fomm mii.. dhis the 2nd hatred..
he keptt sendingg dherr last tymm msggs mii sendingg himm,, i feell irritatedd! i cudnt standd it anymorr so i scoldedd himm..
dherr was nuthinn ii cudd do to stopp himm.. all ii know is he wass determinn forr a PATCHH but i justT WASNTT readyy.. ii didntt wan patch.. therr was still so much hatred but ii dunoo..........
therrs too muchh thinggs ii wanaa focuss on witoutt any disturbancee..
ii justt want................