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why does things get complicated for me every single time? why does unwanted problems have to come when i didnt even asked for it to happen? why does unwanted stuff just happens?
i dont even know why things are happening.. families , we're always fighting for no reason . friends , we're not talking to each other at all . me and hairee , me and ain . i dun undrstand a single ting. what i do to upset them or what. so far as i think i guess i neve did anything, but why must things turn bad, as if its getting worse. why does tings get so bad.? im already stress up in studies and at home . I JUST DIDNT ASK ANYTHING BAD TO HAPPEN. I DONT NEED THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW. THIS IS SO BULLSHIT! I DONT WANT THIS LIFE NOW, I DONT WANT BAD THINGS TO HAPPRN. I DONT WANT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANT PEACE, FOCUS IN MY STUDIES! I DONT WANT ANY FIGHTS ANU MISUNDERSTANDING!!!!!! IM FUCKED UP WITH THIS LIFE!!!

ain

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ain has always been a gd friend and hopefully she always will be .
she gave me laugh she made me smile and was there for me at my ugliest moments . i just hope things will get fine between me and her ASAP .
i want us to be crazy like last time , i really hope so . please fulfil this wish!!!

i want happy moments for bestfriends , i really dont want ugly moments , hais...
dearest allah , fulfil my wish . me and ain to be fine !!

didi damdam

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ever since you enter my life, things do get better, you were ther to comfort me, you were ther to console me lend a helping hand love me and show care and concern . every single day, you wud try to bring light to my life and it does cheer me up everytime .
althou life aint perfect , but at least having you around , its just great . i duno what wud happen in future . like didi says friends comes and goes , as for my case i hope he wun go that fast .
i dont want to lose a boyfriend , an angel , a buddy , a bestfriend or a lOvEr .
i'll try to live with what im living now , i guess i should treasure and cherish in whatever i have now .

edit of my life

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if i have a time machine, i wud change every bad things that happen in life and mend it well
if i have a time machine, i wud see wad things shud be undone and make it perfect
if i have a clicker, i just click to the gd stuff i have in life
if i was a camera, i wud love to take pictures of my life and mend it in a proper way
how much things i wana be but i guess it wont happen.
life just seems to be getting in my way to whatever i wana do.
i just wish things just get well soon .

life is all about shit

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life to me now is just shit
life to me now doesnt seem happy
doesnt seem meaningful
doesnt seem interesting
doesnt seems to get into whatever and how i want to
doesnt seems to bother about whats gona happen to me
it just seems stress
just seems fucked
just seems bad
just seems rotten
just seems nothing is important in life
just seems SUX SUX SUX..
wonder what life is all about..

AUDIthekiller

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wee..!!!
i made a new friend! and i like him!!!
haha.. "sweet" bioy!
happy to get to know him!!
nyahaha!!

aggressive

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i dunno wads happening to miie, ive been getting into alot of fights lately and im kinda of fed-up abd disappoitd with myself.. i duno how to explain to the emotions im showing, i just noe i was aggressive,angry,violent and behavin like a bitch, i aint noe wat got into miie, i just noe i was behaving liktat, i cudnt control my emotions and end up fighting in skul with ppl and almost got kicked into the counselling rm!! man i hate tat!! apart frm tt, i dint sort out my thinking at all. i continued shitting outside and start fights outside, i duno wat was i duing! i was rude to my parents, i went smoking, i duno wat was i duing..
wat was troubling me, i duno either..

i just felt that i was a bitch and i admit i was.. im sorie to my frends, i didnt mean it,
im trying to. and as fr counselling, i'll think abt it,XD
hopefully tings wud turn fine..
i noe i have to change

Confuse

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I found out he havent forget me yet and he still loves me and I wonder why?! Why is he unable to forget me?! He should be forgetting me carry on with his life and do what he wants. I want him to stay happy too.. But how do I tell him, I find it difficult to tell him, all I do, is pray for him. I hope he still remember the promise he made. I dont him to go back to his old life. I dont know how to talk to him.. How? Just forget it.. At least we are still talking now. Hahah, be happy ...... :)

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250609
went out wiff my boyfrens & galfrens,, celebrating our boyfren advanced bdae & frends out!! had funn! got a little bored and showed tantrum,, but it was ok thou!!
haha. tried to speak to hairee todae bt he showed lyke he wasnt interested so didnt bother so much i didnt tok to him at all. no one textd so just dun bother!(:
i ave the bdae boy a hug and his present, just happy for bdae boy since hes happy!
well just next time then..

wish everyday will be a happy day for me(:

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recently i celebrated my cuxins bdae, it was so freaking fun & i really enjoyed it! just wish time wud stop at tat tyme so i can stay happy liddat! cant wait to meet her again for the actual bdae party!
well sadly tat day, it rain,, hais..
well i just hope thers another tyme liddat! wud definitely be happy!!

SINGLE

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I AM GOING TO STAY SINGLE FOR NOW .
I AM JUST GOING TO CONCENTRATE IN MY STUDIES .
I AM GOING TO STUDY HARD AND FOCUS .
I WONT BE HAVING ANY RELATIONSHIPS AT THE MOMENT NOW .
HAIGHS ...

dudubird is a sucker for life

i cant believe i cried todae. tt stupid art teacher of mine, dudubird, she critices me like fuck. i feel so hurt. & she even complain to the other teacher-in-charge abt me. hypocite fucker bious. i hate her to the core. cos of her my art marks are so getting down this year. how i much wanted to scold her back. no wonder still haven marry. no one want her. hais,, actually im utterly disappointed in myself. why cant i draw well like my friends , i guess i dunhaf a talent like my dad. shes just never impressed in anything i do. i guess im just sum rotten apple in the art class. im jus a typical singaporean which wun live well in her life. i lost my confidence bcos of dudubird. how much do i hate her, so much. shes the last person i want to see when i die.
hais, i know i cant do well in art but why am i still drawing & wasting my time finding informations for my art, why do i still care? weird! u dun even noe urself nura?! how shameful! hais..
erms,, well why shld i care tt much?! shes going off soon anyway. bon voyage man! i cant wait wen shes gone!
i duwan to be crying again&again bcos of her.
i still go other matters i nid to see to.. muahaha..

i confuse

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recently after i broke up with him , two new guys came to my lyfe and trys to held their hand into my lyfes , they wanted me to gif them a chance and that they'll takecare of me . i didn tell him about it cos we dint seem to be toking that much anymore . we just talks casual . i dint tell abt my problems and i duno shld i tell him . i dun think hes interested either . at this moment of tyme , i wanted him by my side giving me support but why am i always running away from him ? i know i was running away so far from him from everyone even my family members . i just feel that im so far right behind and they are at the front waiting for me . but i just duwan to move ahead . im too scared , things are happening so fast in a bad way . why cant things stay calm ? why are things moving so much now or am i too slow ?
my close frend , hairee doesnt even bother anymore . i felt brokenhearted , i just feel like the whole world is hanging at my shoulders and im terribly tired , i just want to run away as further as i could so i dunhaf to face the downs .
i never feel so scared in my lyfe before , i duwan my ****** to break , but how do i tell him the problem???
i guess nothing good wud come of it either .

dyingg for vengence

ii duno wads happeninn to mii but all ii knoww was i wantedd revengee forr muyselff and my familly.. i wantedd te avenge to thosee who destroyedd miy lyfe made miy lyfe unhappy sad ruinn..
ii wantedd thosee who treatt me badly to feell the waayy ii feell.. ii hate ppll hu destroy otherr ppl happiness.. do theyy everr thinkk wads dherr outcomee,, wad wudd happen afterr thatt,, how wudd the persoonn feell..
do theyy everr thinkk whadd iff they're underr our shoess!?

takingg advantagee of mii lyke i was a piece of shitt!
do theyy thinkk of my feelinggs , NO!!
do theyy thinkk whadd has becumm of mii , NO!!
do theyy thinkk how does the thingg changge mii to this way , NO!!
whadd du theyy thinkkk, theyy just thinkk nuraa is a kid tuu playy withh tuu toy aroundd withh tuu use herr and thenn dumpp herr..
now the life circlee hass changged..
-SHE WUN LET ANI1 DESTROY HER LIDDAT-
-SHE WUD SEEK VENGENGE FOR HERSELLF-
-SHE WUD DESTROY THOSE LYFE WHICH HAS DESTROYED HERS-
-SHE WUD FIND ANIWAYS JUST TO DESTROY-
-SHE WUD SAVE THE INNOCENT PPL FROM THE CLUTCHES OF THOSE MOTHERFUCKERS-


she wunnt stop just yett till she gets satisfiedd of herr revengee..!
so all the motherfuckers out therr,,
this sadisticgaga will RUIN YOUR LYFE!!!
i am the "fucker of all fuckers"..
this is wadd has becumm of mii
after wad uu did to me!!

--him--

_17th may_
hee camee todaee witt alexx.. seriouslii ii hatee alexx to derr coree forr bringingg himm alongg.. i was upsett & fumingg inn angerr, cantt expectt alexx liedd to mii!!
still ii calmm myselff downn.. ii lookk at habeebb ii wass speechless ii didntt knoww whadd to tell him speakk to himm or whadd.. i cud onlii lookk at himm..
derr same wayy i lookk at himm andd ii was speechless but dhiss tymm the feelingg was differentt,, i wass scaredd..
we all satt down,, he wass waitingg forr an answerr..
bhadd all ii cudd wass staree at himm into spacee..

at last ii told himm let mii tokk to alexx ferstt.. & he wentt awayy.. dherr next momentt he koledd askingg forr a stickk.. i was surprisedd.. i guess he reallyreally did startt backk.. or is hee justt doingg it on purpose to spite mee..

i & alexx tokk whilee walkingg to kfc.. we eatt & we tokk..
uu really wanna noe.. i tell uu now//
i was UPSET ANGRY DISAPPOINTED & HATRED WAS insidee mee!
~we were textingg abt my sisterr x & he startedd sayingg diss phrasee..
_i am goingg to bite uu_
i dunno but i kindaa hate itt.
i was angryy & speechlesss.. i justt didnt lykkee him harpingg on the samee thingg againn..
wenn i gavee himm a warning he didnt listenn, till i ask himm the questionn BREAKK..
he startedd panikingg & tolld me finallly tatt it wass his sisterr hu type dherr thingg,, i hate himm.. dhis is the 1st hatred..
he cudnt accept it & he keptt thinggs fomm mii.. dhis the 2nd hatred..
he keptt sendingg dherr last tymm msggs mii sendingg himm,, i feell irritatedd! i cudnt standd it anymorr so i scoldedd himm..
dherr was nuthinn ii cudd do to stopp himm.. all ii know is he wass determinn forr a PATCHH but i justT WASNTT readyy.. ii didntt wan patch.. therr was still so much hatred but ii dunoo..........
therrs too muchh thinggs ii wanaa focuss on witoutt any disturbancee..
ii justt want................

HELLO! DONE BY ME-LIYA! haha. Specially for COUSIN DILLA!