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didi!!
i want tht avenged sevenfold CD~!!!!!!!!!!!

meow! gerek seh!!
how much ah!!!!?
i pay u ah!!

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he puts a brave front when hes with mie
he puts up a smile fr mie to see when hes with mie
he puts mie on top of his list
he doesnt thinks tht im at fault

im scared i might hurt him further
wat if things wont work out at all
especialy when he said is ther even a high chance tht we can be tgether?
i love to love him and i want to be loved by him but can i even confirm we can be tgther? is he even willing to wait? is he really serious abt mie?
i duwan to accept him just to have him as a replacement to frgt sumbody wich is nt worth of having mie, black..
if i noe tht its just wasting time remembering him, y cant i just frgt him?
i guess its easier said than done..
why are things complicating for us when we atually find them easy?

why does life kips twisting around?
good to bad and bad to good

its kinda funny tht sumtimes i think death is best way to end out troubles when i noe its sinful to commit suicide.
but having life which is painful hurts more.
but wat can i even do? nuthing at all..
???

wats happening??

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im rapping a story abt my fwends out ther..
hey yo..
whatts happening ter ma fwends outt ther??
uu guys aree fighting outt ther, its scaringg me..
why does misunderstandings always happen?
why cant ther be peace among ya' all!?
take a chill pill and just RELAX..

okays dee's talking bullshit

to ma dear thetun and didi out there,, chill out yawe!

u guys are fwends man! no use fighting over nothing!!
peace..

untuk gadis ayuu ku

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thanks aLOt ayuu frr helpingg miie edit myu blogg.. tkder time and i bett ure more expert in bloggings! =))
thankyous syngg!!

why why why

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hari raya

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i wonder what will happen to hari raya. everybody is at their longgerheads. i hope we wud be happy like the previous one.
WE WANT TO GO AIN HOUSE THIS YEAR!!
why why why cannot? haha..
hmms umah dia cute lah sey. and cosy!!
wee..
plus i got my kuih layang2 ready...
i really tkder orang pangai this year for example ppl which are in longgerheads between each other, those who read this shld know wat i mean.

kalau nk ikot, IKOT. tknk, stay at home and merana tk dpt duit raye!!
muahaha!!

hmms i really hope everything wud be fine!
wee..

didi

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sometimes i wonder am i just using him as a replacement? as much as i dont want to hurt myself but i definitely dowan to hurt him more.
kesian seh dia.. gave us a chance and then in the end i asked for the break away. hais.. why was i stupid? why cant i just forget about the black mama?
i guess now i have to focus on my studies rather than on other things.
especially my family matters..
i knows he wants a patch soon,, i really hope it wud happen. one day..
i really hope so..
but i aint know whats gonna happen in the future.
but i hope its a gd thing,
im really sorie didi.. i didnt mean to hurt u.. please dont be sad, im always here=)

i want him to take gd care of himself.
and dont do stupid things. like me.

takecares didi!

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the guy who treats me as his hope
the guy who says i made him feel alive again
the guy who doesnt treat me as a garbage or sucker
the guy who says i'm the only person that makes him happy with my magic
the guy who thnks i'm something
the guy that treats me as
DEE*

the guy is didi[:

but i DONT KNOW , IM STILL SCARED!!
p!ouVrVd=paranoid dEE

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at times
i feel like hurting myself
i feel like killing myself
i feel like being alone
i feel like being a sadistic bitch
i feel like owning a cigarette shop
i feel like like having a time machine
i feel like like seeing my future
i feel like changing my life
i feel like taking drugs to control me

didi

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we started talking
we started chatting
we started laughing
we started giggling
we stared flirting
we started fighting
we started being emo
we started our patch
so far, things were rough for us but now
we're fine .. smooth..

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why does things get complicated for me every single time? why does unwanted problems have to come when i didnt even asked for it to happen? why does unwanted stuff just happens?
i dont even know why things are happening.. families , we're always fighting for no reason . friends , we're not talking to each other at all . me and hairee , me and ain . i dun undrstand a single ting. what i do to upset them or what. so far as i think i guess i neve did anything, but why must things turn bad, as if its getting worse. why does tings get so bad.? im already stress up in studies and at home . I JUST DIDNT ASK ANYTHING BAD TO HAPPEN. I DONT NEED THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW. THIS IS SO BULLSHIT! I DONT WANT THIS LIFE NOW, I DONT WANT BAD THINGS TO HAPPRN. I DONT WANT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANT PEACE, FOCUS IN MY STUDIES! I DONT WANT ANY FIGHTS ANU MISUNDERSTANDING!!!!!! IM FUCKED UP WITH THIS LIFE!!!

ain

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ain has always been a gd friend and hopefully she always will be .
she gave me laugh she made me smile and was there for me at my ugliest moments . i just hope things will get fine between me and her ASAP .
i want us to be crazy like last time , i really hope so . please fulfil this wish!!!

i want happy moments for bestfriends , i really dont want ugly moments , hais...
dearest allah , fulfil my wish . me and ain to be fine !!

didi damdam

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ever since you enter my life, things do get better, you were ther to comfort me, you were ther to console me lend a helping hand love me and show care and concern . every single day, you wud try to bring light to my life and it does cheer me up everytime .
althou life aint perfect , but at least having you around , its just great . i duno what wud happen in future . like didi says friends comes and goes , as for my case i hope he wun go that fast .
i dont want to lose a boyfriend , an angel , a buddy , a bestfriend or a lOvEr .
i'll try to live with what im living now , i guess i should treasure and cherish in whatever i have now .

edit of my life

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if i have a time machine, i wud change every bad things that happen in life and mend it well
if i have a time machine, i wud see wad things shud be undone and make it perfect
if i have a clicker, i just click to the gd stuff i have in life
if i was a camera, i wud love to take pictures of my life and mend it in a proper way
how much things i wana be but i guess it wont happen.
life just seems to be getting in my way to whatever i wana do.
i just wish things just get well soon .

life is all about shit

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life to me now is just shit
life to me now doesnt seem happy
doesnt seem meaningful
doesnt seem interesting
doesnt seems to get into whatever and how i want to
doesnt seems to bother about whats gona happen to me
it just seems stress
just seems fucked
just seems bad
just seems rotten
just seems nothing is important in life
just seems SUX SUX SUX..
wonder what life is all about..

AUDIthekiller

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wee..!!!
i made a new friend! and i like him!!!
haha.. "sweet" bioy!
happy to get to know him!!
nyahaha!!

aggressive

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i dunno wads happening to miie, ive been getting into alot of fights lately and im kinda of fed-up abd disappoitd with myself.. i duno how to explain to the emotions im showing, i just noe i was aggressive,angry,violent and behavin like a bitch, i aint noe wat got into miie, i just noe i was behaving liktat, i cudnt control my emotions and end up fighting in skul with ppl and almost got kicked into the counselling rm!! man i hate tat!! apart frm tt, i dint sort out my thinking at all. i continued shitting outside and start fights outside, i duno wat was i duing! i was rude to my parents, i went smoking, i duno wat was i duing..
wat was troubling me, i duno either..

i just felt that i was a bitch and i admit i was.. im sorie to my frends, i didnt mean it,
im trying to. and as fr counselling, i'll think abt it,XD
hopefully tings wud turn fine..
i noe i have to change

Confuse

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I found out he havent forget me yet and he still loves me and I wonder why?! Why is he unable to forget me?! He should be forgetting me carry on with his life and do what he wants. I want him to stay happy too.. But how do I tell him, I find it difficult to tell him, all I do, is pray for him. I hope he still remember the promise he made. I dont him to go back to his old life. I dont know how to talk to him.. How? Just forget it.. At least we are still talking now. Hahah, be happy ...... :)

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250609
went out wiff my boyfrens & galfrens,, celebrating our boyfren advanced bdae & frends out!! had funn! got a little bored and showed tantrum,, but it was ok thou!!
haha. tried to speak to hairee todae bt he showed lyke he wasnt interested so didnt bother so much i didnt tok to him at all. no one textd so just dun bother!(:
i ave the bdae boy a hug and his present, just happy for bdae boy since hes happy!
well just next time then..

wish everyday will be a happy day for me(:

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recently i celebrated my cuxins bdae, it was so freaking fun & i really enjoyed it! just wish time wud stop at tat tyme so i can stay happy liddat! cant wait to meet her again for the actual bdae party!
well sadly tat day, it rain,, hais..
well i just hope thers another tyme liddat! wud definitely be happy!!