didi

a new things in my life

how am i suppose to explain to him?
that im not ready for a relationship at all.
how?
can i just tell him?
what will he say?
wud he think im just using him"?
nope, im not.
i just... really not ready
am i gonna hurt him this way..
i guess yes but i cant force myself at all..
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO TELL HIM???!!!

black

a new things in my life

i think its time for me to forget him.
i guess it was just a waste of my time to actually think that hes faithful to me.
i suspect that he's gonna have another affair soon.
haha, so much for him being with me forever,
thats just crap i guess.
im glad i learnt my lesson fast.
i dont want to be so upset with him that much
but at the same time i dont thin im ready for another relationship.
it feels like im just being used time again and again.
im scared. i dont think i have the confidence yet.
whenever im faithful to him, hes using me.
why cant guys be faithful to girls at all..?
no offence. but to me, guys are just using girls for their own pleasure.
what am i to anyone anyway??
i dont want any relationships yet. i dont know how long i need but im just not gonna have one yet.
to all sweet girls out there,,
DONT LET GUYS USE YOU AT AL;L. IF YOU FEEL THE GUY IS USING YOU OR SUSPECT HES PLAYING BEHIND YOUR BACK,
DUMP HIM STRAIGHT AWAY. DONT WAIT.
let them know girls can rule the world too.