life

life's just like this

he wants us to be one soon..

as much as i want, i cant..

and im nt ready..

i dont want to be with him as unofficial girl

since hes still with his current girlfriend.

too much to think now.

i really hope he understand what i mean by official..

in the mean time,

i dont want to pressurize him

nor do i want to pressurize myself thinking abt it.

i just want to concentrate on my family and studies life.

hopefully things would get better soon..

feeling stressed up nowdays..

and abt the enemy in class,, rahmat..

i really hope to be friends not foes anymore.

i dont want to have enemies..

cos i dont see a point having one..

:((

my gd friend

life's just like this

been through alot in school,

i have no idea whats going on in my life.

not been easy,

my classmate has a crush on me,

and he confested to me a few times already.

been feeling kinda bad,

cos i bring him down everytime.

he said he thinks we have no chance of being together one day,

somehow i think that way.

but then at the same time i didnt mean to hurt his feeling in any way.

no matter what,

i still treat him as my friend.

i wonder how will he take the truth.

he really wants me to be his girl one day.

i dont know how to explain to him.

hope he really understands it though...

hes a gd friend of mine,,

and i dont want to lose that friendship with him!