i confuse

a new things in my life

recently after i broke up with him , two new guys came to my lyfe and trys to held their hand into my lyfes , they wanted me to gif them a chance and that they'll takecare of me . i didn tell him about it cos we dint seem to be toking that much anymore . we just talks casual . i dint tell abt my problems and i duno shld i tell him . i dun think hes interested either . at this moment of tyme , i wanted him by my side giving me support but why am i always running away from him ? i know i was running away so far from him from everyone even my family members . i just feel that im so far right behind and they are at the front waiting for me . but i just duwan to move ahead . im too scared , things are happening so fast in a bad way . why cant things stay calm ? why are things moving so much now or am i too slow ?
my close frend , hairee doesnt even bother anymore . i felt brokenhearted , i just feel like the whole world is hanging at my shoulders and im terribly tired , i just want to run away as further as i could so i dunhaf to face the downs .
i never feel so scared in my lyfe before , i duwan my ****** to break , but how do i tell him the problem???
i guess nothing good wud come of it either .