the guy whos irritating me??

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his name is atan aka shasi.
i have no problems with him except for the fact he likes to call my house and hp unnecesarily.
my parents definitely dont like it especially my dad.
he burst into fumes when he found out atan aka shasi keep calling our house for nothing and wasting time talking unnecessary stuff which are no regards to school matter.
hopefully he stop calling my house and hp lest before my dad scold him like F!
hes got his gurl to chat with too!
apparently too, im always gonna be fine eventhough im sad.
thks for your concern but you dont have to ask me about it all the time, but hey i appreciate it, i know youre concern bt theres a limit to it too right..
i dont like guys asking all the time. and the reason i dont always open up to you but i open up to other ppl like fadli, ian and audi is becos i felt comfortable talking to them. they didnt had to ask me anything. they would know the reason why. and i just open up to them like so.
hmms im sorry if you might feel hurt after reading this becos you might think that "nura, i know you longer than them why cant you tell me anything?" the same reason i give you, i dont feel comfortable telling you my stuff that much.
and we dont know each other that well as you think you do.
if you do, you wud know what im thinking. you claim me bestfriend but you dont know know me at all.you just know the outer as what you see. yes we know each other for 4years but that doesnt mean you know inside out that well. well nvm if you cant understand what im talking about. you'll soon know. and i admit myself too im distancing myself from you.
whatever it is, you are still a friend to me(:
thks anyway for everything atan.

confused

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i want to forget you but i still love you!
what am i supposet to do???

fadliyasin

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a good friend of mine.
been helping me with my problems lately.
been advising me with alot of stuff.
he wants me to be strong.
hahas.. maybe i cud be strong for the sake of my friends, but im not sure.
im trying hard to forget him too.. u know fadli its quite hard to forget tht dumb ass.
as usual, i start my nonsense again.
i try to change urh.
but i aint know how.
im jst trying my best.
give me hope and courage to change for the better.
please..

blahblahblah

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hmms,
i cant forget him.
i duno why.
but i cant.
i started drinking "water" only to find out i cant take it
i sleep in skul like the whole day
i take asapasap like almost everyday, finishing soon.
haha.. i sumtimes wonder i know tht its wrong to do the things tht im doing now,, so why am i still doing it?
my teacher wants to send me go counselling.
plus she wants me to tell her whats going on with me
but i just duno what to tell her. she knows the real reason but i cant admit it.
i think im being atupid doing stupid stuff.
its not even worth it
my dear friends, i will try to control what im doing and change for the better.
im sorry i made you guys worried. i try to change. but not now. i need time. im not ready.
i just want to play with life now.
the wound hurts, i just want to mend it myself slowloy. need time.

didi

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how am i suppose to explain to him?
that im not ready for a relationship at all.
how?
can i just tell him?
what will he say?
wud he think im just using him"?
nope, im not.
i just... really not ready
am i gonna hurt him this way..
i guess yes but i cant force myself at all..
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO TELL HIM???!!!

black

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i think its time for me to forget him.
i guess it was just a waste of my time to actually think that hes faithful to me.
i suspect that he's gonna have another affair soon.
haha, so much for him being with me forever,
thats just crap i guess.
im glad i learnt my lesson fast.
i dont want to be so upset with him that much
but at the same time i dont thin im ready for another relationship.
it feels like im just being used time again and again.
im scared. i dont think i have the confidence yet.
whenever im faithful to him, hes using me.
why cant guys be faithful to girls at all..?
no offence. but to me, guys are just using girls for their own pleasure.
what am i to anyone anyway??
i dont want any relationships yet. i dont know how long i need but im just not gonna have one yet.
to all sweet girls out there,,
DONT LET GUYS USE YOU AT AL;L. IF YOU FEEL THE GUY IS USING YOU OR SUSPECT HES PLAYING BEHIND YOUR BACK,
DUMP HIM STRAIGHT AWAY. DONT WAIT.
let them know girls can rule the world too.

blurblur

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alamak!

my fren angryangry sah
dun like lah
aiyo
i say i drinking
but haven wat
leks ah!
slash no big fuck lah sia
im cool!

BLACky

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i think u forgot about me
i think u can find sumone new fast'
i think u can easily fall in love with someone else
i think ure not seriou about us
i think ure just using me indirectly
do you even love me truly
said u wouldnt leave me no matter wat
even if i leave u, u wouldnt leave me
but now,
ure gone for real
and i didnt expect its too fast
i wanted us to stay long but its ever meant to be
i duno wat to do now
the innocent guy whos waiting
what shall i do with him
im scared, dowana hurt him
hais.,.
so complicating
black black
WHY DO I EVEN LOVE YOU SO MUCH WHEN YOU DONT EVEN LOVE ME BACK?
my love is just wasted.. on you!
you dont even care!
you said ' i love you but i hate you now '
i guess you really forget me
and i guess u regret having me
i love u but i hate u too

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wee...
raya lagiks one more day lah sey
tk sabar ah
wee..
dpt duit raye.
tk sabar!!
hais enth biler i nak dpt my a7x nye cd lah sey.
haha
haighs.
hari raya menjelang, N level pon cuming.
mepeks sah!
SADSAD

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didi!!
i want tht avenged sevenfold CD~!!!!!!!!!!!

meow! gerek seh!!
how much ah!!!!?
i pay u ah!!

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he puts a brave front when hes with mie
he puts up a smile fr mie to see when hes with mie
he puts mie on top of his list
he doesnt thinks tht im at fault

im scared i might hurt him further
wat if things wont work out at all
especialy when he said is ther even a high chance tht we can be tgether?
i love to love him and i want to be loved by him but can i even confirm we can be tgther? is he even willing to wait? is he really serious abt mie?
i duwan to accept him just to have him as a replacement to frgt sumbody wich is nt worth of having mie, black..
if i noe tht its just wasting time remembering him, y cant i just frgt him?
i guess its easier said than done..
why are things complicating for us when we atually find them easy?

why does life kips twisting around?
good to bad and bad to good

its kinda funny tht sumtimes i think death is best way to end out troubles when i noe its sinful to commit suicide.
but having life which is painful hurts more.
but wat can i even do? nuthing at all..
???

wats happening??

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im rapping a story abt my fwends out ther..
hey yo..
whatts happening ter ma fwends outt ther??
uu guys aree fighting outt ther, its scaringg me..
why does misunderstandings always happen?
why cant ther be peace among ya' all!?
take a chill pill and just RELAX..

okays dee's talking bullshit

to ma dear thetun and didi out there,, chill out yawe!

u guys are fwends man! no use fighting over nothing!!
peace..

untuk gadis ayuu ku

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thanks aLOt ayuu frr helpingg miie edit myu blogg.. tkder time and i bett ure more expert in bloggings! =))
thankyous syngg!!

why why why

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hari raya

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i wonder what will happen to hari raya. everybody is at their longgerheads. i hope we wud be happy like the previous one.
WE WANT TO GO AIN HOUSE THIS YEAR!!
why why why cannot? haha..
hmms umah dia cute lah sey. and cosy!!
wee..
plus i got my kuih layang2 ready...
i really tkder orang pangai this year for example ppl which are in longgerheads between each other, those who read this shld know wat i mean.

kalau nk ikot, IKOT. tknk, stay at home and merana tk dpt duit raye!!
muahaha!!

hmms i really hope everything wud be fine!
wee..

didi

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sometimes i wonder am i just using him as a replacement? as much as i dont want to hurt myself but i definitely dowan to hurt him more.
kesian seh dia.. gave us a chance and then in the end i asked for the break away. hais.. why was i stupid? why cant i just forget about the black mama?
i guess now i have to focus on my studies rather than on other things.
especially my family matters..
i knows he wants a patch soon,, i really hope it wud happen. one day..
i really hope so..
but i aint know whats gonna happen in the future.
but i hope its a gd thing,
im really sorie didi.. i didnt mean to hurt u.. please dont be sad, im always here=)

i want him to take gd care of himself.
and dont do stupid things. like me.

takecares didi!

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the guy who treats me as his hope
the guy who says i made him feel alive again
the guy who doesnt treat me as a garbage or sucker
the guy who says i'm the only person that makes him happy with my magic
the guy who thnks i'm something
the guy that treats me as
DEE*

the guy is didi[:

but i DONT KNOW , IM STILL SCARED!!
p!ouVrVd=paranoid dEE

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at times
i feel like hurting myself
i feel like killing myself
i feel like being alone
i feel like being a sadistic bitch
i feel like owning a cigarette shop
i feel like like having a time machine
i feel like like seeing my future
i feel like changing my life
i feel like taking drugs to control me

didi

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we started talking
we started chatting
we started laughing
we started giggling
we stared flirting
we started fighting
we started being emo
we started our patch
so far, things were rough for us but now
we're fine .. smooth..